skills!

ths guy really knows his stuff..:P thank you alex!




word of the day: moves

i can see the light!:P

it actually feels like theres an end... i dont have to go to school anymore! ever again actually. cant tell you how happy i am, i mean, after 12 years of regret it feels sooooo good to just let go of this shit.:D

oh, i actually think im going to make this, im going to become a nice person!:D ive read the book three times now..:$ but thers so much to learn, and im retarded so itll be more than three times:P but i mean, its just theory, it doesnt stop there, i have to make it practical too.. but ill make it! im finally going to become a nice person!


my brother had a book he would hold with pride
a little red cover with a broken spine.
In the back he hand wrote a quote inside,
when the rich wage war, its the poor who die




(L) minutes to midnight

congrats jonne!

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hope youll get a



word of the day:                                                  waltz

ups and downs


Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now



but who needs babies anyway...? and after all, bertils back!♥ and ive got my gs in both physics classes:D its just anatomy and skador left..:S tomorrows the maths test, but i think ive got it covered:P then theres the dancing, but ill manage, just hope ill get to dance with someone even worse than me:P

i miss..

something               someone               sometime
  



word of the day:                                    regret

please kill me


the killers - under the gun

miss you!

 
 
  
  



word of the day:                                       crew

sleeeeeep!

juppie, sleeps what i want.. ive had these night mares for almost a week now, really have to get a good nights sleep... almost fell asleep at the dinner in town today.. see for your self! couldnt hold my head up! and ive got dreads!:S i really do have to buy a hair brush! haha, im sooo tired! im thinking about hiring a hotel room  next weekend so i can sleeeeeeeep! only thing is, i havent got any money...:S

                       1. get money
                       2. book a hotel room
                       3. come up with something that makes it possible to get away for three days
                       4. go to the hotel
                       5. sleep
                       
this is probably the best plan ever made!:P

 
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mHm!

 
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i was tired, ok?;P

yeps, its true, i totally won today! miracles do happen, even to dad!:P won the biathle with like 2 minutesdown to cissi who came second :D

never thought itd go this well, after all, i havent been following my training programme very well..:S oh, well, who cares now?!:P

anyway, this doesnt matter in school, so, off to the anatomy..:S

word of the day:                                      finally

A 201

yeeeey! orion just went by... its really foggy here today, so you can hardly see its a  ship! but at least i tried..:P
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ORION
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heres a better picture..:)
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I hope you're with someone                          I hope you're with someone
who makes you feel                    image127                 who makes you feel    
safe in your sleeping tonight                                 that this life, is a life         
 

my sweet bertil

someone stole my sweet bertil today!:S what is this shit? sweet things keeps being taken away from me! i dont want to do this anymore, give me my things back! yes, im a materialist, but then again, who said i wasnt?:P and why not, by the way? if i cant get persons to like me, i personally think its better with material things that love me as much as i love them, oh, okey, at least wont say if  they hate me..♥ wait a minute, maybe thats what happened? bertil hates me, so he ran away..?:S

anyway, ive only got 5 exams left:

                ♣ anatomi   (mon)
                ♣ skador   (wed)
                ♣ matte diskret, kap 3 (tue)
                ♣ fyB  (tue+wed)


so, östersjöspelen this weekend... hmm, im thinking about reading whilst competing, could really need it. hate, hate, hate these learn by heart stuff, especially in school... im just not made for learning by heart..:)

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this is strange, havent talked to henrik for, say, three days, and i already miss him.. hmm, hmmm, hmmmm... you really can tell i havent got any real friends..:$ but i wonder if he got his calling-up papers and if he called that guy about lk... hope so:D

word of the day:                                             things

piggelin

uuuu, got a wrayneck after lying pressed against the wall... so, i still have to wright my swedish oral presentation, but then im off to school..:S oh, well, ive done 3 tests/assignments, "just" 6 left...:)

probably looked something like this

dont really feel like a...
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word of the day:                                           piggelin

goodie

farmors been really good for a couple of weeks now, a biiig relief! saw her at the shop today, shes even driving by her self again!:D

so, got my new pod today, its so small! looove♥

and i picked my gown up today!:) still think its a bit too big, but thats fine, i can eat a loooot!:P

wotd is actually dedicated to william..:P i want to give you all of these, so you can pick and choose as you want!:)


word of the day:                                        neetu

sara ♥

didnt sleep much last night.. woke up like half an hour after i fell asleep, squeezing my pillow all cold sweat with tears rolling down my cheeks. i dreamed about last tuesday, about sara, dreamed she died right there, in my arms... what wouldve happened then? there are so many possible scenarios, but none of them happened! so ill just try not to think about it and be happy for sara being alive and feeeling fine..♥

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cutie!♥

memorial vid

this vid is a memorial video for the colombine massacre, for me its for victor, fredrik and patrik as well...



Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling
for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world
watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry
like what did he say?

i got tagged..

oooh, just remembered i got tagged by my cousin on my old blog..


Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
At the end of your blog, you need to choose two people to get tagged and list their names.

Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. my ears get red when im tired or nervous


2. i fall in love with everyone/everything all the time, and never stops loving the person/it


3. im extremely lazy and have the self control of a five year old when it comes to studying and trying to stay away from sweets


4. i never lie, ok, it happens, but its either so bad you can tell, or ill tell you like 3 seconds later..


5. i hate not being able to answer questions. if someone asks me something i dont know the answer to, i get really annoyed and make up something i think is believable, like "im not sure, but I think its like.."..

6. i cant take a complement, i always have to deny whatever it could possible be


7. im extremely sentimental and often get very offended if someone says something, even if i know its a joke

8. when im sad or upset i try to act extremely happy so no one can tell if i am sad or upset, but as quickly as i can, i get out in woods and make a cry run, or i go to bed squeezing myself to the wall whilst im hugging myself... (i know, im pathetic, but thats the way it is..)


haha, so, im going to tag kajsa and claes:P

hmm, im cheap..

got a book from a certain person today, konsten att vara snäll... think its a hint;) but ill read it carefully..:P

today was a very depressing day:
came to school and found jens and olof, so i sat down next to them.
olof: heeey! du luktar sprit!
he moves over to another sofa.
me :jens, luktar jag sprit?
he smells me.
jens: nej, du luktar diskmedel...
WHAAAT?!?
but when i asked hanna later on she said i smelled as i usually do, waaay to much fabric softener.. i just hope thats better...:P
 or  or x2


then i went down to RC
it was crowded! so i sat down next to a guy (probably from TE) who did physics just like i was going to. i asked to borrow his calculator a couple of times, id forgotten mine..:S anyway, just before he left he leaned over towards me and whispered "du är billig...!", i said whaaat?!

so, lets sum this up. this month im:
          ◊ billig
          ◊ bitterfitta
          ◊ slampa
          ◊ hora
          ◊ bortskämd brat
          ◊ fitta
          ◊ patetisk
          and a loooot more stuff i cant remember right now..:D

oh, well at least it was an interesting day, AND ive bought two new pair of shoes...♥


tchepps..

thats my own pronunciation of the word youd like to call chips...:D


its so unreal. victor, fredrik and patrik all died within three months! and sara collapsed at school yesterday, i got so scared when i found her, all i could think about was "dont you dare let her die", even though it didnt look that bad at all... was so happy when she woke up a couple of hours later, biggest relief!

but good things happen too! williams got a girlfriend!:D yeeey! im sooo happy for him. i really do hope shes as sweet as he is, he totally deserves it! cute!♥

oh, by the way, last night i finally accepted the fact that im a mean and egoistic person, and it feels totally ok...:) so stay away from me if you want kindness:P


word of the day:                              appreciation

mMm!

I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong




image138 March 21, 2007 image138

÷   May 22, 2007   ÷

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woohooo!

..not!

dad found out im almost failing two subjects, so he confiscated jööran, wont get him back until i graduate.. maybe it was for the best, though, i mean, i had to stop this msn thing anyway.. at least ive got bertil left, although hes running out of money..:S so now you know if its a bit weak here...:) anyway, ill try to keep it up at school:D


heres where i find some comfort. and jööran, 23 days isnt that long..;)



word of the day:                              disappointment

congrats bro!

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and no, i didnt hit him, he just likes to look retarded on pictures..

haha, im a retard

and im proud! not many people would admit it..!

retard warning 1.
the dishes took a bit longer than i expected, so when i finished it was waaaay too late to go to the core. so i decided to go to the woods, said and done! there i found some sticks, a horse (yes, its true) and MUD...♥ i walked the horse (which name turned out to be isak) home, extra careful to walk in ALL of the mud..:D (not WITH the horse, though)

retard warning 2.

as i came home mummie was there, so she made dinner, black pudding... oh, well, guess thats food as good as any... anyway, she asked me "har du gjort NÅGOT vettigt den här helgen?", and i started CRYING! how silly isnt that?

retard warning 3.
so ive been working with these damn swedish assignments the whole weekend, and as i finished them i realized i wasnt finished (not even started acctually...) the english assignment im supposed to present tomorrow. so, with a heavy mind, thinking it would take all night, i started writing, exactly 24 minutes later i was done! i was so happy i had to run around the house twice(!) to calm down..:D its things like these making life worth living:P and talking to my new MÖP-friend on msn..;)

   
weeeeeiii, three out of three aint bad, ey?:P


 

oh, BIIIIIG question:
why, Why, WHY do old people pat younger peoples (my) ass???

some cowardness

train
gun
razor blade
rope
water
knife
pills
car


 


if...



..youd die today, would you be satisfied with how you lived your life?


what happened..

..to our

and

weekend..?

i was actually really looking forward to it..

back in the days

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back in the days, when there was no trouble whatsoever, look how happy i was
wish i could go back there again, and just freeze time to those happy days


 
word of the day:                                    childhood

finish!

its totally true, im done with everything! thought id never finish.. but i did and for that im totally happy!:D so, tomorrow im free all day, except for farmors dinner party that is.. but still..:P

i even had time to help olle with his weapons,

 
take the bike to ica buying a couple of


then i took some silly pictures, damn its fun!:D



soooo deserve some time in elins beauty salon..:D said and done, off she goes!♥

ha!

did i really think i could get a free day? silly me, farmors going to have her bridge ladies over for a little dinner party. all of them wants to see their new house... and ill play the part as the good grandchild and wait on them. oh, well, i just hope i dont get paid, i always feel so guilty recieving money from them..

anyway, lets see what ive got left on the list:
                  ♣ eyvind johnson
                  ♣ harry martinsson
                  ♣ final assignment
so, ive done the fun part, just the boring part left...

oh, heres the proof by the way :)
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word of the day:                                trash

i wonder..

..if its.. nooo, it couldnt be... or? as always in my almost non-existent heart, theres H O P E


ouch!



* Men då struntar vi i vad som hände i onsdags? Låter det bra för dig?*
 





oh, samson, what was i supposed to say "oh, no we cant, ive got the biggest crush on you!"? i feel like THE stalker. once he told me about a chick he had sex with that fell in love with him, and that he thought she was really annoying and wouldnt let go... feels like im like that chick now..:S AND i think ive worn number 2 out too..:S its like mummie said, im too intense...

Mr Brightside


inside my head..

 
the killers - mr brightside

Go Navy!

This is boredom at its best. This is the Navy! :)

haha, i think ive got this from henrik before, but this time i found it when i was watching happy tree friends...

some questions are eternal..

..and one of them is are these people stupid or are they mega stupid?

Conductor: World Trade Center-bound E train. Next stop -- Seventh Avenue.
Teen #1: We have to get off.
Teen #2: Huh... They built the World Trade Center again! Whoa.


Girl:
Fall Out Boy would fuck me for my shoes.
Friend: Yo, I would fuck you for your shoes.
Cashier: Lemme see your shoes? [Nods] I'd fuck you for your shoes.


Preppy girl #1:
What's the difference between men's shaving cream and women's shaving cream?
Preppy girl #2: Um... I think it's a different chemical reaction or something.

 the chemical reaction, right..



yupyup, some stuff just needs to be considered for a loooong time..:D


yummie!

yeeey! look what ive done today! its a shame im not allowed to eat it though!:S but i think ill grab a piece when no ones looking...:P
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i almost cant keep my hands of it... yum!


theres no end!♥

and they just keep on coming!
number 4 plus a stridsbåt 90E!

was so happy i didnt think about taking pictures so this ones from soldF.com...


ah! what a day! im like getting all exhausted of excitement!:P

♥ lätt trossbåt

when i think about it, öland is a totally ok place to live. just look at my lunch view today:P


3 lätt trossbåt on a column..♥
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do i have to say that its an O on this view?;P
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what am i up to?!

woke up at 1 PM today! totally retarded! thats 10 hours in a row! think its the longest ive ever slept... and its NOT good. i dont understand how people can sleep for so long, ive just lost half of my day AND i got the worst  back ache ever... dont think ive been this tired since falken or something!


anyway, its not like i can undo it or anything, and i better get to work now, ive got a whooole lot of stuff to do today
                  ♣ moa martinsson
                  ♣ eyvind johnson
                  ♣ harry martinsson
                  ♣ final assignment
                  ♣ wash my clothes, so ive got SOMETHING to wear next week.. (just have to finish mummies laundry first, she never seems to get it done...)
                  ♣ clean my room (as i promised)
                  ♣ skoga
                  ♣ core
                  ♣ cut the grass
                  ♣ grind daddys boat
                  ♣ but first: make some lunch for olle and me :D

can you understand my choice of the wotd?:P

word of the day:                                     stress

snow patrol - chasing cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own


We don't need
Anything
Or anyone


If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?



  snow patrol - chasing cars 


happy tree friends




i know its retarded, but i just cant stop watching!

wednesday one liners

theres NOTHING better than some wednesday one liners from overheard in NY when you feel a bit low..


Little boy holding a Dachshund: Too many weenies! Too many weenies, Mister Weenie!

Tourist teen spotting Che Guevara shirt at vendor: Oh my god! Isn't that Tom Cruise in Top Gun?

Girl: Oh, so I just found out my nipples come up to my boyfriend's bellybutton.

Man on cell: Well, when you put your arm all the way in, is it slippery?

Old woman drinking tea: It wasn't butt sex -- he just wanted the remote.

NYU girl: It was amazing, and I also saw a dead guy on the street this morning. I saw Oprah and a dead guy all in one day!

Ghetto teen: Yo, girl! Don't be pickin' at yo' pussy like that in the street! You'll be on YouTube tomorrow!

Bimbette: Tiff, do these make my vagina look furry?

Teen: When I was young and fat I used to dream about scooping out my fat with a teaspoon. I was a deeply disturbed child.

Fat lady eating pizza: Well, you know, I figured this was just as good as a salad...

apple family♥





 


aaah, the best and sweetest family i could ever get!♥


studying hard..

yeah right!

this is how i feel but this is how i look... 

i really do have to finish this crap now, but i just cant write! i dont know why, theres something totally wrong with me today! ive read the texts, and looked at the questions, but i just cant find the answers and write them down..! and the worst part is it isnt even hard!:S i just keep falling asleep, or i find myself staring into thin air... gotta finish this shit, i havent got time with this!

oh, found my old replay jeans♥ today, just a biiiit too small, but i put them on and showered them, so theyre tiiiiiight, but ok..:D

so, im thinking about buying these 2 gorgeus little things♥
 




word of the day:                                        immediately

17 juni

ah, snook, my darlings! seems like theres no worries when i walk down the slope listening to you..♥
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17 juni - snook
 

mix and match, aight?

haha, must have looked ridiculous at school today. woke up at 715 by mummie screaming at me "vi åker nu!". had to get to school, so what to do except collect some clothes and jump into the car? so i dressed and put on my contacts in the car, and as you can see, the result was splendid!  ...NOT!
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yeeey! pink shoes, red hoodie(!), jeans and a white&navy bag?! haha, no wonder no one would help me at the programme..:P but who cares anyway, its not like someone would help me as a rule..:) at least i HAD clothes on:D

look at my room! looks like someone bombed it or something! but ill make it look better..:P you just wait and see!:)
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haha, you really can tell that ive got my cell back, with camera and all..:P


word of the day:                                    match

want one!

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want, want, waaaaant one!
gotta have one!
 

papers, papers and papers

i got the papers from lk today! so, ill just send them in and its all arranged! ive even bought tickets! its so on! just 31 days left!
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haha, theyre sooo U G L Y!


my god! these new horses are worse than the monsters on K1! its like youve taken one of those monsters and feed it with as much oats as you can find, then let it stay in the stables for like 2 weeks, and tadaaa!


ah, my cell is working again!
finally!



♥   i want, want, WANT! oh, you know what i want...;P   ♥


oh, thats why

En vän är den
som vet allt om en
och ändå fortfarande
tycker om en.




..guess ill just have to shut up..:)

im a fucktard

yeeey! im in love with bitter person who hates me.. wooohooo! im a frickin fucktard!


but henrik is my friend and im totally happy about that.:) when i think about it, its kind of disturbed to have a friend youve never actually met..! what does this say about me? that i cant make friends? that i cant keep them? oh, well i guess ill just have to wait and see... hopefully i wont "wear him out" (mummies expression) anytime near...:)

anyway, just 166 days to go...
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i want båtåka!♥


best quote today on overheard in ny:
Student: Is that a vagina?
Teacher: Yes, it is. You were the first one to notice the vagina on my wall.


word of the day:                                      fucktard

LEO

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Love triumphs over all for this sign, which is ruled by the heart and operates from this dimension too. Leo's are born fortunate. Charismatic and positive-thinking they attract not only an abundance of friends and opportunities, but manage to survive life's stormy times with style and good humour.

Once a Lion is committed to a relationship, they are totally devoted and faithful. Should their heart or trust be broken they never forgive or forget. When a relationship breaks down (even a long standing one) they can disappear into the sunset without a backward look. Leos can cut ties, and leave others heartbroken, but usually there is a good reason why they have broken a tryst. For a Leo, when a relationship is over, really over, it is over for good.

There are three levels of soul-evolution of the Leos. The highest is represented by the Sphinx; wise beyond their years and great teachers to others. The second is the Lion, King of the Jungle, ruled by ego but always protective and sustaining of those they love. The last is the Lion Cub, immature and undeveloped, frightened by anything new. These Leos cling to others (in the mode of the child not wanting to leave its mother's side).) They can't bear to be alone.

No matter what level they have attained, all Leos are trendsetters, leaders and adventurers. Their weakness is their pride. This is one sign where the saying "flattery will get you everything" applies, but be warned criticism will slam the relationship door right in your face. 


things making me sad


  • when erik and olle is outside my window picking their noses and throwing boogers on my window (they are doing this right now..)
  • mean people
  • when people forget about my birthday (i know its selfish, but still)
  • when people i know get stoned
  • when people forget about me
  • lonelyness
  • being yelled at
  • bullies
  • injustice
  • when erik and olle comes in to my room and farts (you think its possible to sell them on ebay?)

boooring..:P

haha, this is one of those things everyone do at least once in their life time. and i admit it, ive done it more than once..:$ oh, well, its not like you have to read it or anything..:P 


UTSEENDE
( ) Jag är kortare än 160 cm
(X) Ibland tycker jag att jag är ful  i know!:P
(X) Jag blir lätt brun
( ) Jag skulle vilja att mitt hår var av en annan färg
( ) Jag har vänner som aldrig har sett min naturliga hårfärg
( ) Jag har en tatuering
(X) Jag är osäker över mitt utseende
( ) Jag har haft/har tandställning
(X) Jag har glasögon/linser  oh, DO i?
(X) Jag skulle gå på plastikoperation om det var ofarligt och gratis  soo granted!
( ) En helt okänd person har sagt att jag är snygg  haha, who wouldve said something that stupid?:P
( ) Jag har mer än två piercingar  thank god, not a single one!
( ) Jag har piercingar på andra ställen än på öronen
( ) Jag har fräknar (no...buääää..)

FAMILJ
(X) Jag har svurit åt mina föräldrar  and after that never again..:S
( ) Jag har rymt hemifrån but ive thought about it..:P
(X) Jag har blivit utslängd hemifrån haha, believe it or not!
(X) Mina biologiska föräldrar bor ihop
( ) Jag har ett syskon som är under ett år gammalt
(/) Jag vill ha barn någon dag
( ) Jag har barn
( ) Jag har mist ett barn

SKOLA/JOBB
(X) Jag studerar
( ) Jag jobbar
(X) Jag har somnat i skolan
( ) Jag gör nästan alltid mina läxor
(X) Jag har missat mer än en vecka av skolan
(X) Jag underkändes i (eller avbröt) mer än en kurs i fjol
(X) Jag har stulit någonting från min skola/arbetsplats oooh, HAVE i..:P
( ) Jag har fått sparken

SKAMLIGHETER
( ) Jag har sagt "lol" i en riktig diskussion
( ) Jag börjar ännu gråta av Disney filmer
( ) Jag har kissat på mig av skratt
(X) Jag har fört konstiga grisljud då jag skrattat who havent?
(X) Jag har gråtit av skratt
(X) Jag har limmat fast min hand i något  what havent i been glued to?:P
(X) Jag har skrattat tills någon form av dricka har kommit ut ur näsan
(X) Mina byxor har gått sönder på offentlig plats suppose the fencing means public?

HÄLSA
( ) Jag föddes med en sjukdom
( ) Jag har fått stygn på ett öppet sår
( ) Jag har brutit ett ben
(X) Mina tonsiller har tagits bort
( ) Jag har suttit hos läkaren med en vän
( ) Mina visdomständer har tagits bort
( ) Jag har genomgått en allvarlig operation
(X) Jag har haft vattkoppor
( ) Jag har haft/har astma

RESANDE
(X) Jag har kört mer än 300 km på en dag (åkt med)
(X) Jag har flugit
( ) Jag har varit i Ryssland
( ) Jag har varit i Kina
(X) Jag har varit i Sverige
( ) Jag har varit vid haldefjäll
( ) Jag har varit i Japan
(X) Jag har varit i USA
( ) Jag har varit i Afrika

ERFARENHETER
(X) Jag har tappat bort mig i min hemstad
(X) Jag har sett en fallande stjärna
(X) Jag har önskat då jag sett en fallande stjärna
(X) Jag har varit på en offentlig plats i min pyjamas haha, school is public aight?
(X) Jag har tryckt på alla knappar i en hiss
(X) Jag har sparkat en kille mellan benen
(X) Jag har varit i ett Casino i seriously have!
( ) Jag har hoppat fallskärm från ett flygplan
(X) Jag har gått "skinny dipping" aaaah, very day in summertime!:P
(X) Jag har lekt sanning eller konsekvens
(X) Jag har druckit en hel liter mjölk på en timme haha, five in an huor and a half:P
(X) Jag har krockat i en bil not me, but mummie did and i was in the back seat
(X) Jag har skidat  oh, have i been skiing!:P
(X) Jag har medverkat i ett skådespel
(X) Jag har träffat någon från internet i det verkliga livet once,and we all know how that went...
(X) Jag har fångat en snöflinga på min tunga
(X) Jag har sett norrskenet
(X) Jag har suttit på ett tak på natten
(X) Jag har aprillat någon
(X) Jag har åkt taxi
( ) Jag har ätit sushi
(X) Jag har åkt snowboard doesnt say anything about that you have to bee good at it:P

FÖRHÅLLANDEN
(X) Jag är singel hahaha
( ) Jag är i ett förhållande
( ) Jag är förlovad
( ) Jag är gift
( ) Jag har varit på en blind date
( ) Jag har blivit dumpad oftare än jag själv har varit den som dumpar
(X) Jag saknar någon just nu eeeeh, yeeees..
(X) Jag är rädd för att bli övergiven who isnt?
( ) Jag har varit otrogen i ett förhållande
( ) Jag har skiljt mig
(X) Jag har varit kär i någon som inte varit kär i mig did you read my blog?:P
( ) Jag har sagt att jag älskade någon och ljugit
( ) Jag har sagt att jag inte älskade någon och ljugit
( ) Jag har sparat något från ett gammalt förhållande

ÄRLIGHET
(X) Jag har gjort något som jag lovat någon annan att inte göra
(X) Jag har gjort något som jag lovat mig själv att inte göra loooots of times..
(X) Jag har smygit ut utan lov
( ) Jag har ljugit om var jag är för mina föräldrar
(X) Jag har en hemlighet som ingen vet
(X) Jag har fuskat i ett spel
(X) Jag har struntat i ett prov hahaha

DÅLIGA TIDER
(X) Jag har druckit alkohol
( ) Jag dricker mig berusad mer än en gång per månad
( ) Jag kan inte svälja piller
( ) Jag har blivit diagnoserad med depression
( ) Jag tar mediciner mot depression
(X) Jag har/haft anorexi och/eller bulimi
( ) Jag har sovit en hel dag utan att ha behövt det
(X) Jag har vaknat gråtande
(X) Jag har somnat gråtande


DÖDEN
( ) Jag är rädd för att dö
(⁄) Jag hatar begravningar
(/) Jag har sett någon dö but he came back to us!
(X) Någon nära till mig har försökt begå självmord
(X) Någon nära mig har begått självmord

MATERIALISM
( ) Jag äger mer än 5 rap cdn
(X) Jag äger en iPod eller en mp3-spelare looove♥
( )Jag har en ohälsosam relation med anime/manga
(X) Jag äger många dyra designerväskor oopsie....:$
(X) Jag äger något från H&M
( ) Jag samlar på serietidningar
(X) Jag äger något från benetton
(X) Jag äger något jag köpt på e-bay
(X) Jag äger något från Diesel

RANDOM
( ) Jag kan sjunga så att andra kan lyssna på det  hahaha
(X) Jag har stulit en bricka från en snabbmatsresturang ooops!:D
( ) Jag har lätt för att öppna mig för nya människor
(/) Jag ser på nyheterna
( ) Jag dödar inte insekter
( ) Jag svär ofta
( ) Jag sjunger i duschen
(/) Jag är en morgonperson   who could not be at SVK..?:D
( ) Jag betalade för min rington
(X) Jag är petig med grammatik unfortunately
(/) Jag är en sportfanatiker i dont know, does that include looking at sports on the tv?
(X) Jag tvinnar mitt hår mellan mina fingrar
(X) Jag är bra på att baka believe it or not!
( ) Min favoritfärg är vit, ljusröd eller ljusblå
(X) Jag skulle ha pyjamas på mig till skolan actually, ive done that:D
(X) Jag vet hur man skjuter DO i..:D
(X) Jag är kär i kärleken   hahaha, just look at me!
(X) Jag skrattar åt mina egna skämt  who else would?
( ) Jag äter snabbmat varje vecka  eeeuu!
(X) Jag är bra på matematik  hrm, was..
(X) Jag tror på spöken
(/) Jag är online 24/7 på msn, även som "borta"  what can i say? havent got a life..
(X) Jag har inte lämnat in arbeten och ändå fått en 10 i en kurs  yesssss, 3 actually, engA, B and C
( ) Jag kan inte sova om det finns en spindel i rummet
(/) Jag älskar mörk choklad
(⁄) Jag spelar data-spel och/eller playstation-spel
(X) Jag är bra på att minnas ansikten
(X) Jag är bra på att minnas namn
( ) Jag har ingen aning om vad jag vill göra med resten av livet  oh, i know...!♥


S-N-dubbel O-K ♥


mhhhmm, this is love with a biiiig L! snook song of the day iiiiiis: Lejonhjärta (ft Organism 12)



even think ill make them the wotd..:P
word of the day:                                   snook



jööran

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aaah, really do you, jööran! from now on ill take you with me wherever i go!




and, yes, its true im totally one of those silly material chicks..:P
 
 

J E A L O U S

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aaah, youve just got to admit youre soooooo jealous of my new fencing bag...:P

and stop looking at me, i know i look like a retard on this picture, but it was the only one with the bag on..!

stockholm central station is my new home

it totally is! sat there for like 4 hours yesterday doing my swedish assignment. then i went back to the hotel, had some some toubles finiding it though, so i didnt get there until like midnight..:S went straight to bed:P then nina and elin came back at 515 in the morning, they where rude enough to wake me up AND take pictures..! i was so not happy and soooo tired! heres some of them, the pictures after these ones totally got out of hand, so youll never get to see them...:P
  

as a really weak revenge i took som epictures of nina drewling in the car, gonna put them up as soon as my cell is working again:D

so, the team competition went kind of great actually, considering we had like the worst team ever..:P



word of the day:                                  unbreak

in my damn heart

och jag undrar faktiskt hur länge jag kommer vara kär

säkert så länge jag lever - men det vet du väl

när jag dör så finns du kvar, du är en del av min själ


 
 
 

buäää...!

im bald! its totally true, im so not kidding when im saying she cut off like 30 cm! i look like someone theyve just let out from mental hospital. oh, well, its not like it can be undone or anything..:'(



so, eugéne fillol today, not bad at all actually..:) came 32 out of 50. know it doesnt sound very good, but seriously, i didnt count on winning against the russian fencing team nor the world top 10 fencers either..:P im totally satisfied with my fencing today:D i mean, winning against piasecka and get 4 bouts against sofie larsson isnt toot bad;P

oh, at the competition there was this guy who very well could have been williams twin brother! was on my way to glump attack him as i realized "this is not william"...:$ but it seriously couldve been! he even had the same expression on his face, like sad and a bit lost. but when i thínk about this guy smiled a lot, and i dont think ive ever seen william smile, hmm, strange..
   
worst pictures ever, but still...:)

so, right now im at the central station in sthlm (again) writing my swedish assignment (barf!). but after that i have no idea what to do, might go to the movies, but i dont know, am a bit short of cash (as always)..:P have to get something to eat too, ill just have to see what thatll be..:)

haha, sitting next to me is a strange guy in his late fortys muttering things like "fucking cunt", "shut the fuck up" and "fucking shit head".. hope he hasnt got tourettes, because that would just justify the whole thing...:P

word of the day:                                       satisfaction

fixifixi..:P

aah, i need appreciation and some tenderness! where can i find it? at least not around here, i can promise you that! you think its possible to rent it somewhere? the fact that it isnt for real is totally something i can ignore..:P

ive looked up trains to härnösand, but im still wating for an answer from terje about the lodging, sooo hope its gonna work out!:) wont make a stop in sthlm though, from the start i thought i could wait for william and then we couldve gone there together on saturday morning, but i havent heard anything from him, so ill go on thursday, if its possible, otherwise on friday.:D wouldve been nice with some company but at least ive got my pods! what would ive done without them?♥


♥love, love, looove you!♥

after all, im going to stockholm today..!:) although i have no idea what to do on saturday evening, was thinking about going to the movies, but i couldnt find any interesting movies...:S i guess ill just have to stay at the hotel and hope theres a good movie on tv, after all, hoping is something im (waaaay too) good at..:P

oh, henrik said the sweetest thing yesterday! he said i was kind and friendly! i dont know if thats quite true but it was really sweet of him to say so... hihi, got to tell him about jonas mum, its hilarious!
 

word of the day:                                   tenderness

ison & fille

well, cant say theyre pretty, but theyre cute and sweet, and thats enough for me!

♥ ison & fille - haffa ♥

  
 

paolo nutini

me like!

paolo nutini - new shoes (uk version)

happier

see? im happier now!:) probably because i talked to nina about how it feels when youve got a really bad day, felt really good actually!:D we usually never talk about stuff outside the fencing, so it was a new thing..♥

oh, must remember to get henrik an SVK-badge! after all, i promised to give him one..;)

asked william about if he wanted us to go together to härnösand, but he didnt answer to that, i suppose thats a no. well, at least i asked, so now its up to him.. but thats ok, if its a no it means i can go there on thursday, which means that ill get to be there the whole friday!:P♥

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at the gym today i saw this great band on mtv, kid down. theyre wicked! and theyre from åmål! listen to their songs and watch their awesome video at their site..:) ♥


ah, this is fun! that guy who asked me out for prom spread a rumour in school that im the slut, sleeping with every guy that looks at me.. just dont understand where people get these things from, this month ive been called a whoooole lot of stuff! among others: bitterfitta, slampa, hora, bortskämd brat and fitta... feels like ive got something written on my forehead, but i didnt last time i checked the mirror...:D 

so, tomorrow im off to stockholm and eugéne fillol! i seriously dont know why im going, its not like im going to fence any better than at sm.. but, heeey, practice is always good, or as they say, övning ger färdighet!:P so packing is what im going to do tonight ◊

whatever

whatever, whatever, whatever! i dont care anymore, about anything.. screw school, screw pentathlon, screw fencing, screw feelings, screw people, screw everything!


screw


give me more of
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you couldnt see this coming huh? weeell everybody can have a shitty day, its just that ive had 2 shitty months.. sorry, but i didnt ask you to read this crap, i didnt even tell you about it right?:P promise to improve and write some nicer stuff tonight, but right now im going to the fencing..
 

word of the day:                                      whatever

keep it real god dammit!

I miss you
I miss being overwhelmed by you
And I need rescue
I think I'm fading away
But I keep thinking that you'll wake me up with a whisper in my ear
I keep hoping that you'll sneak in my room

Have I been hoping loud enough, wishing hard enough
Can you see me when I'm asleep all alone
Alone

 

  
   
   

im a grown up!

its true! according to the test at vuxenpoang.com im 26,4 years old! unfortunately im not sure of if its a good or a bad thing, but i totally hope its a good thing!:P

ah, yessss! a retard! loove him! you totally have to listen to his song♥

TIMMY


word of the day:                          billabong

i wish..:D

E: Damn good kisser.
L: Everyone loves you.
I: You are great in bed.
N: You can keep secrets.

from minna...:P

poor hanna

its so sad, whats going to happen to hanna, and to orea, and what about all the stuff she loves to do, but isnt able to do anymore? its totally wicked, how does things like this happen? shes totally worth something better, even better than she had before this began... never met anyone as sweet as hanna, so why did she get it? i really do want to help, but i dont know how..

worst day ever, wont say anything more than that, itll just be depressing:D but now its so much better, because ive got my calling-up papers! finally! screw school, im joining the navy in 173 days!
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cant wait for this to be me...!

you know, after all, 173 days isnt that much..;) and LKs 14 of those..:P and then lins coming and well have the summer of our lifes! just hope therell be some more yachting this summer, conditions looks good:D YEEY!♥
word of the day:                                     betrayal

i am too busy to have friends
a lover would just complicate my plans
so i will never look for love again
i'm taking matters into my own hands

i think i could last at least a week without someone to hold me
i think i could last at least a week without someone to hold me
won't you hold me?

fair and not so fair

eriks up to something, and i think its a drivers license, hope ill make it before he does!:S im like chewing my lip off being worried hell get it before i do.. and ive been working real hard with this... got to work harder! :D

svkrf called henrik today and told him he wasnt allowed to do lk! after all hes done for them! totally wicked! feels like its mean to go if hes not allowed.. besides, id really like to be there with at least one person i know... well, theres nothing i can do about it, already called the svkrf..:S but theres always hope!♥


aaah, big O!
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visborg just passed, and gullet was on board! sweet or what?!



word of the day:                                   booooobies

finally

for a couple of hours there, i thought id never come home! i still havent slept properly since 8 oclock yesterday morning, that makes, what, 39 hours without sleep, thats whacked! left stockholm at 1045, kalmar 16, where i rented fight club (after reading the book twice i still havent got a grip of the plot...) took the bus, home at 18.

home at last, i started to make the table for mummies birthday dinner, which was pizza..?  

and then, finally, the shower. dont think ive been enjoying a shower that much since... ever!

fight club it is, then straight to bed!:)



home

so, just 5 hours left... had a very interesting night, id like to say. included transvestites, drunks and angry chicks, among a lot of other things

congrats mummie!


im totally greatful about henriks reading tip, wouldnt have survived without it! thank you!♥ was totally what i wanted to read, and oh, so örlogsmässigt!:)

soo... HOME!♥

lean on me ♥

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on


If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me



word of the day:                                         sleep

booooring

so, just 11 hours left til my trains leaving..:S barf! hate this! why dont i look these stuff up? im too impulsive for my own best..:)

♥   lika barn avvika bäst del två   ♥

anyway, did sooo bad in the competition today, but i totally won over elin brännström! and i almost crushed camilla martinsson:P dad said i fenced real good, eeh, duh, dont think so! maybe for a little while against camílla, but other than that i fenced so bad!

youve just got to see this feel good movie! little miss sunshine, cutest ever!♥


word of the day:                                     hot charlie

im frickin agressive..!

promise! im totally agressive! got a mail today, but it was like all torn up and there was nothing in it... it was inside a plastic folder with a note: "vi ber om ursäkt! ditt brev har tyvärr skadats under postbehandlingen på göteborg postterminal." i cant even see who send it! i have an idea about who it may be, but thinking about the way hes been acting, i honestly dont know! aaargh! hate, hate, HATE the swedish post office!

anyway, finish the swedish assignment first, then i have some packing to do, but then im off to the sm! uppsala, here i come! and im gonna kick your ass! ...NOT!:) im probably going to do reeeeeally bad in this competition, but heeey, im only there to get som practise and have fun!:)


damn, i miss my cosy sunrises...♥



oh, by the way! did you wear pants today? couse i didnt:P you didnt know today was no pants day? you baaaaad:D 
word of the day:                                           hope

long, long ago

at the train station:
(biiiig hug)
"you really have to let go now, youre choking me.."
"im sorry, its just that... ive missed you so much!"
"heey, weve been talking almost every day...?"
"i know.. but its just not the same.."
"...plus you met
h last week."
" thats so not camparable! youre my first, my best, my only one!"
"what am i..? what did you just say?"
"you heard me, youre my first, my best, my only one..."
then it
all started again, but in a better way....

oopsie..

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cant help it! im
(still) in loooove...♥



thing is i dont know if its good or bad, suppose its bad, considering he made it quite clear that all he wants is for us to be friends. oh, well, well just  have to see how it ends:) after all, its not like im expecting anything to happen, but, as always, theres hope!;)

kukbruk

oh, well, im sorry, but it wasnt me who named his book...:) anyway, this guy, manne, was totally awesome! he talked for about an hour, but it felt like five minutes! hes got this tv-program, sexet on ztv, check it out! eva and i had really fun at his lecture today (no, nothing like that, you perv!)..♥


ooh, youve just got to hear this song with friends of jack♥, nicklas is awesome!

If You Want Love


it just struck me that there are 7 material things in life that keeps me going:

             ♥ my gym card

             ♥ my key card to the sports center

             ♥ my bus card

             ♥ my visa

             ♥ mamma scan

             ♥ jööran and

             ♥ water

but then im all good...:)


word of the day:                                        jucktakt

new friend request

ha! i think i totally did it! sooo deserve an mvg after this..;P nothing can stop me today! not even the fact that i ve just sawn myself in the finger!

ooh, i made a friend yesterday!talking bout friends, heres the song! looove gym class heroes!


♥new friend request♥

hmm, just found out i really do have to increase my training.. mummie sprained her ancle as we were walking down the slope, so i decided to carry her (and our three bags) home, geez, really shouldnt have done that! one hour later and im still completely exhausted, my finger wont stop bleeding and i have the worst frickin back pain ive ever had! anyway, mummies ancle will hopefully recover soon ♣, its in situations like these im really grateful for what ive learned in im & is..♥

so, core and running both went great. so did the massage, but the masseuse found out im really skew. obviously ive got problems with my back and my neck, plus im way too sway-backed. she says i have to start wearing back pack instead of the bag ive got now.. but how convenient is the bs2000♥? because i still havent found my möp-box♥.. and i think thats where i put my ss2000..♥

haha, im totally overconsuming these poor little hearts, weeeell, im a loving person, what else can i say...:P

word of the day:                                         friend

new, new, new

so, 1st of may and ive just got the most scary sms ive ever got:
"Mona och jag vill önska dig
 en trevlig 1 maj i
äkta socialistisk anda!
Röda pussar och kramar!!"
i thought i was going to die, seriously! i bet they even fly the flag today... huuuh!


♥muf (and skrutten) in my heart♥

weeelll, as i wrote earlier, new month and not a minute too early to stop this "feel sorry for my self"-crap. (first step already done: added someone dear on msn.. and im sooo gonna try being the best friend hes ever had!) im gonna finish school in a great mood, with my new friend(s) in mind! looked at my calendar today, its examination on wednesday and svk starts on saturday, this means ill have to take the train on friday morning to be in härnösand on friday afternoon. so, tight schedule, but itll be fun!

right now im so trying to finish my project work for the presentation tomorrow, its going kind of bad..:P but im gonna make it!:D as soon as i finish im going out for an eagerly awaited skogning!

talking bout skog, ive now got 1 letter, 2 phone calls and 2 e-mails from försvarsutbildarna..something is totally going on around here!:P thats totally exciting, because i cant wait to look like this!
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ahhh, ive just put up the silliest picture ever on flottan07/08♥ only reason i chose that one was because of whats hanging on the wall behind me..:)

as you can see im totally happy today, thats why youll get a word of the day that (hopefully) agrees with who i am, sometimes for the best, sometimes sooo not.. but as usual, i never do stop hoping..:D

word of the day:                                      neetu

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